I don’t know what it is about Sundays, but they always seem to drag me down. Maybe there is some weird brain chemical that is secreted and it tells everyone to go crazy, scream, and attack each other. Any thoughts? I didn’t think so.
School is going well. I’m acing all of my tests: lowest grade being a 93%. I love my chef instructors (who will remain nameless, just incase they have the google disease). I love the school. I love the uniform. I love everything I’m learning. But there seems to be something missing.
I am alone a lot. I’m not a person that handles or likes being alone a lot. The last time I saw my brother, my roommate, was Thursday before I left for school. I had way too many projects to do, so I couldn’t go down to Peachtree City this weekend. So, I’m going a little stir-crazy. I miss all of my friends; my family (some of them: I don’t miss the stress though). Some days I wish I could go back to Tucson, and then I realize that I have nothing to go back to. I don’t have a house there anymore, my family is falling apart, and I don’t want to go back to work at Blockbuster (no offence, Tammi).
Things will get better. They have to. I’m just throwing my life into my schoolwork so that I don’t break down. I can’t imagine moving down here without any family. Oh! And did I mention that I don’t feel like I can be myself around them? Weird, right? God I hate life sometimes.
I hope that this is a good week. I applied for a job on Friday, and I need to hear back from them. Ten dollars an hour plus tips. That would be AMAZING!
I love you all, and I hope all is going well!
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Nick B.
Hang in there Nick, all will work out. I am envious of you,it takes a brave man to step out into the unknown and change his life for the better. Plus your a sweetheart you will make all kinds of new friends,as for your family they will always be here for you. Take care and keep your chin up.ANG.
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ReplyDeleteNew friendships will evolve new relationships might too ;) So far so good Nick. I enjoy reading your blog - you always find something to write about even on the simplest of days/subjects/things...
Maybe you could go back to your other hobbies in times when you have some time to yourself... I remember you liked photography?
Love ya (k)nickers! hahaha =D
-Lizzie
hey dude!
ReplyDeletehaven't checked out your blog in awhile.
I gotta say, I think it's great that you still use that cocoa's picture from like, 4 years ago, for your profile pic! :)
Hey! You never emailed me back! Lame!
Well, as far as your blog goes, I'm sorry to hear you've been alone some much. But, it takes some real cajones to do what you're doing, and frankly, I know you're doing the right thing. Maybe that's too bold of me to say, but, it just seems right. Not to mention, you don't want to come back to this hell hole, dude. This is where dreams die. So, do yo thang, boi!
I think someone needs a little poon-tang in they life furreal. There's gotta be some fine-ass, cookin' bitties down there in atlanta, right??
Sorry about the ghetto talk. Dunno where that came from.
But, seriously. Just "put yourself out there" (whatever that means...idk, people always say it though) and you'll have no problems socially. You are so cool. Seriously.
Have a good one, buddy!
Miss ya!
Andrea
I know exactly how you feel here. I've been struggling to make friends in New York. I'm alone most of the time. Last semester it felt like all I ever did or thought about was homework. But now I'm trying to make a change and make some friends. For some of us, it just takes time, and we have to give ourselves a little push.
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